HELP!!!!!!

This is out of control!!! I can't do it anymore. This kid is too much for me! The crying, the fussing, the not sleeping............... The waking every two hours through the night. Was he sent here to torture me? I can't make him happy........ What am I doing wrong?????????? I can't find peace. I suffer and everyone around me suffers because of it...... I'm spiraling out of control of my own life. Chris doesn't deserve this and maybe someone else can handle my son........ PLEASE HELP ME GET TROUGH THIS! When I do get time alone I just cry............. I work and come home to this. Chris gets some time during the week when the kid is at the sitter while I'm at work. What do I get? I don't dare leave this kid with any other sitter so I can get a break and Chris wants time with me too. I can't keep up the house or my appearance. The lack of sleep drives me to eat more and the hot weather drives me to do very little otherwise! The weather here is of little help to anyone suffering emotionally. We go from gray and cold to gray and rain to scorching HOT. Who want to go outside or get anything done............ I hate this, I hate all of this. It's been six months........ What was I ever thinking, I would do this all over again?????? I don't blame my husband for his frustrations with me! I'M FRUSTRATED WITH ME!!!!